EvFL Brainstorm

This essay is about suicide.

Or rather a study of a metaphysical suicide. Given that I do not intend on talking about how a person comes to that decision or various aspects of suicide within literature, I have a different idea in mind. I do not mean the physical act of killing oneself, but rather the choice and the actions of the author in how she ended her phrases, her poem, her presence, in her poem “ThistledownFlight”. There are six different versions of this unpublished poem available and it is important to look at each one to help determine the author's views on death through the choice of her words, her stanzas, her endings, the finale of the poem, a study of a metaphysical suicide within a poem.

What is

metaphysical suicide? -

the understanding beyond the death?

The markings of the reason behind the actions? -

or the physical act which a person molds their world, signfying their death, literal or figurative.

Suicidal pregancies cast aside in the decaying orchids

poppies really, thats what they are

open your heart with a surgical knife, shiva

I evoke your name

mother leave me alone

she write

and

write -

why the dashes

hash

marks! -

if the dash marks matter, like all does, then why the dash? Cutting physically and emotionally away the superflious fluids around the jello, leave the fruit? Orchids don't have fruid do they? Vanilla is a orchid. But thats not a fruit, tis a spice/flavoring. So where is the spice and flavoringof this poem...

is it like italian... all you see is what you get

and all you need?

the

long

and

winding -

road -

dark -

light-

I

am

a walrus

why beatles -

mother

mary-

meta-

suicide is

alone-

written much, found nothing

only desire

death

blight

birth -

no period

only

exclamation -

dash

dash -

away

no articles

I picture this all in the garden where jesus prayed to god before he died, the speaker praying to ghingha, whomever this deity may be, and the speaker is EvFL... maybe in the end that is all there is to this, a pray for the end to come, seems so sad... I feel sadden by her turmoil...

garden

eden -

temptation

nowisdom -

her

words

not mine

mother no wept

in her form

lacking adjectives

lacking articles

lacking filler

just words

just meaning

but what meaning

“why her soul in my flesh”

mother

where

you

mother

shiva is a god, who is ghingha?

Beacon = lighthoues on a island

orchids = poppies? = death?

Quake anew...

whose words

wheres the speaker

wheres the author

ALL CAPS

editor's choice

or hers?

Type written,

garden eden

blight birth

thistledownflight

who can

be

held

responsible -

dash

away -